Thursday, April 22, 2010

I Love You Dad

On Tuesday 20th April my wonderful Dad passed away peacefully in Auckland Hospital. He has been sick for quite sometime so he is at peace now. Truth be told, I'm feeling numb and not really looking forward to the funeral tomorrow.

I think most of my sadness at the moment is when I look at little Cara. She won't know her Poppa and that just breaks my heart. I always knew that he wouldn't be around for long when she was born (he was 84 when he passed), but that knowledge has not made anything easier that's for sure.

I know my Mum will get through this, she is strong and has myself and my two brothers there to support her. My outlet over the past couple of days has been my sewing machine, surprisingly. Well not really surprising I guess considering the amount I do. Also my knitting needles have been smoking too.

I haven't taken any photo's though, these will come at a later date. I haven't got much else to say really, I'm never one for expressing myself with words. So I will leave it at that for now.

I love you Dad, you will always be a part of this family.

xx

17 comments:

Sally said...

Oh Jo my thoughts are with you at this time. My heart breaks for you. Knowing that it is coming, knowing that he reached an old age, ... knowing anything doesn't make it feel any less painful.
I am no good with words at these times either.

Take care.

sewfunky said...

Thinking of you at this time. My mum passed away last year and it's difficult losing a parent - just take each day and emotion as it comes...

D.

Hannah said...

<3 all my love

My Handmadehappiness said...

my thoughts are with you.... x

Seaside Siblings said...

You and your family will be in my thoughts. Hopefully you will be able to celebrate your dads life tomorrow at the funeral.

Widge said...

:( I'm sorry to hear of your loss.
hugs xo

PaisleyJade said...

hugs

humel said...

Jo, I'm so, so sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family xxx

Me and My 4 Fellas said...

It must have been hard for you to write this and share it with the world. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to send you ((HUGS))...Even from a stranger :)

Kylie said...

Hugs from my family to yours. Take the time and know that crying is ok. Take comfort in what you enjoy doing and the memories - Cara will know ofhis life through your love for him. Hugs

Gilly said...

Oh how sad - Im so sorry for your loss. Love to you and your family.xxx

Ange said...

Kia kaha, Jo...

crzylady said...

Just wanted to say hi and I hope you are doing okay. I hope you are healing and finding some peace too

A Life Less Complicated said...

:( I completely missed this post! So sorry for your loss. I don't think it matters how old someone is or how good a life they've had, it is never easy to lose a loved one and I can't imagine losing a parent although its something I worry about all the time.

Thinking of you

angelina said...

losing a dad is such a sad time. feeling such a loss requires faith and remembrance.
xxx

Valerie said...

i came across your blog via creative space @ kootoyoo & had to stop & give you and your family all my sympathy & virtual support although i don't know you.
i've been there where you are now & this really touches me. i lost my grandparents who raised me (i don't have my parents 3 weeks apart and it broke my heart that my daughter was only 2 at that time and they wouldn't see her growing. but today she knows them through me, my stories & what's in my heart? your dad will alway be there to for your Cara, thanks to you and all the ones who loved him.
take care x

marshmellowmagic said...

Awww Jo, I am very sorry for your loss :( BIG HUGS